Hello 2013, where did you come from?

I am aware we have not spoken in a horrendous amount of time! i have dedicated the past month to family and friend activity's instead of sitting inside in a dark room gawping at the internet, because lets face it, what life is that? 

Being the extremely basic human being that i am, i do make myself resolutions every year, and every year i completely forget about them after about a month. this year is going to be incredibly important so i really need to knuckle down and stick to what i say im going to do.  

♥ Eat Healthy/ drink more water. ♥

I have a worryingly bad fear of food. if i was to go on holiday, i would worry about the food they had, or even going to a friends house which is actually ridiculous. since im going to be travelling to Germany, Cornwall, wales, Norfolk, the lake district (aka the most amazing place on earth) and we might visit Scotland as well. i figured now is a good chance to start trying new foods. since my diet normally consists of sandwiches, apples, yogurt and chocolate biscuits. Also, i really don't get enough water. last year i went through a stage where i only drunk water and about 2-3 litres of it a day at that, my body practically worshiped me! i plan to bring it back this year.

♥ Focus more on my GCSE's ♥
I really don't think it's sunk in enough that this is the real thing now, i cant change my grade and what i get depends on how much i put into it. Textiles especially is something i adore. However, after being told i had already got an A, i felt no need to push myself further than i was already working. I realize now that this could be a costly mistake in time to come and i need to put everything into my textiles work this year.

♥ stop biting my nails ♥

My nails are absolutely horrible, i cant even bare to look at them sometimes. people always moan about how short their nails are, so i compare them to mine which are always about half the length. my nails will never be nice because ive ruined them far to much. I have recently been made aware that my nail biting is due to a mental condition that i have called onychophagia, which is a form of OCD. However, i do genuinely believe that if i set my mind to it, i could stop it before its to late. 

♥ Be more organised. ♥

My whole life is something that i would describe as organised chaos.  I do know where everything is, and what i am doing, However i go about it in a very shoddy way. My wardrobe is currently spread around my floor, im transferring all my makeup into new storage which means there's heaps of crap all over my bed. I felt like i managed to stumble through last year with luck on my side, but this year it cannot be guaranteed so i need to knuckle down and make sure im going to be able to catch myself if a fall.

♥ clean my makeup brushes! ♥

I'll hang my head in shame. I am terrible at remembering to clean my brushes. Its a case of "oh, I'll clean my brushes later!" and then completely forgetting and remembering again when I'm tucked up in bed half asleep, by which point i will defiantly not get up. Clearly my main issue is forgetfulness and laziness. Perhaps a good idea this year will be to designate a time over each weekend where i can spend some time cleaning them properly once a week.

♥ blog more ♥
I've been slacking with my blog for the past month or so, next year I need to be more productive and make sure I can arrange a time 2-3 times a week where I can sit down and blog. Honestly i have had a love-hate relationship with my blog for the past 1-2 months, Not necessarily the fact that i dislike my blog, but more the fact that writing blog posts became a chore for me, which it shouldn't have, I had no desire to write about anything in particular so my solution was to just leave it. Now that i think of it, the cause could have been stress, stressing over school, homework, things to dread in the future, its far to easy to worry me and because of this, i haven't been considering my blog much at all. which leads me onto my next resolution.

♥ stress less ♥

I am the kind of person who will totally flip out over the smallest things. For example, forgetting a hairband for PE and almost having a heart attack at the bus stop... Possibly necessary; our PE teacher isn't the nicest of people. However, i realize now, it shouldn't be that way. I shouldn't be scared to death about forgetting a hairband, it really isn't normal. So i think this year i need to start thinking sod it more to the little pathetic things i shouldn't be worrying about in everyday life.

♥ decorate ♥
my house is relatively new, and sometimes if you paint the walls of a new house which has been a bit damp whilst being built, the paint began to dry out and has basically cracked right off the walls, this year i would like to repaint three of my walls and hang up some picture frames ive been meaning to put up.

So, these are my resolutions for 2013, ill update you at the end of the year if i actually manage to stick to any of them!